That is how you lose a person!

They met at the crossroads tonight in the dark. They met because it was destiny. She walking back home. It was all in a moment. Two eyes locked in a moment and then they were far away from each other moving in the opposite directions.

It was a short glance. She thanked Him in her mind for letting her grow up.

After she had walked away  far from the place, she realised she didn’t even turn back to see him walk away.  She forgot to turn back!

He was the guy she always wanted to meet but now she dislikes the idea. He was the one she always wanted to spot in a crowd but never could, and today when she met him, neither did she smile, nor did she greet, and to top it all she didn’t even turn back to see him walk away. Perhaps because there was no need. There was no emotional connection or rather very little of it to do anything ahead.

He was among those who couldn’t have had enough of her smile. Infact, she smiled only because of him. An year ago, the thought would have been painful, perhaps to both of them. But, not anymore.

She was just a little surprised with her set of emotions and its changing ways. She remembered the last time she saw him, she turned around three times while driving, back to see if he turned back and waved. And, he did. Her heart melted inside with glee. Perhaps, this time there was no need to look over her shoulder.

She realised that people don’t lose someone all of a sudden. They usually let go of a person each day at a time. She did the same.

She let him go in parts.

The feeling of love and its charm, were the first things to leave her. Then the sudden urge to call up for no reason was gone. Then urge to check on Facebook and text messages constantly, blurred. Finally, the phone calls faded away.

With time it was hard to picturize the colour of his eye balls or recall his scent. Then perhaps, the liking towards him vanished. Then the smile lost its warmth; and the laughter, its joy. The words turned from bitter-to-cynical-to-just-ordinary and before she knew it, that Face- that face became just another face in the crowd. That is how you lose a person, one thing at a time.

As, she walked down the path in the dark, she didn’t look back. Perhaps, he is loved by some other girl, and her heart yearns for another man.

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Two Lives!

He is there, still living parallel lives.. loving, hating, smiling, and crying.

the protagonist, She is.. trapped by ideology, opportunity and lack of expression.

There are certain songs that make you cry. She doesn’t sing them, she plays them again and again and again in her head.

He holds a grudge against her. She sometimes writes poetry about him.

She often dreamt of meeting him on a rainy day with red roses; walking hand-in-hand to lonely alleyways.. rushing to smell of the rain and each other.

He often dreamt of lonely dark rooms; hoping for someone to arrive.. rescue him from the darkness.

They would’ve probably been in love.
But, She is trapped in her ideology; and He in his inner demons.

Now, She has found another dream.
And, He another port.

Now, there are no sudden bouts of passion on lazy summer afternoons.
There is no sarcasm, no flirting and no silly conversations.

She is living a could-have-been,
She does not write any longer.

He lives,
hundreds of kilometres away.
He does not sing any more.

The distance is their loss as they do not travel to cover that.

Love, Alone was never Enough.

“You walk with him a li’l shy.. shy to get closer. You look at him constantly with d corner of ur eyes. All you wanna do is to listen every piece of utter rubbish he speaks. All your boldness gets wasted.. in just gathering the guts to hold his hands tight. His activities gets onto your nerves and his one attempt melts you(the strongest of the lot) to a shapeless heath. His smile becomes an award earned and his laughter compensates for every loss in the world.” Quotted from my Old Blog.
And then one fine day, all of these things fade away.
The hardest lesson that one has to learn while they grow up, and is reminded again and again.. is that: Love alone is never enough. It is a lot of other things that surround it. They are all wrong when they say, “Love is the best thing that could happen to you, that all you need is love.” Its really not about Love, it is about “The One”, that we fall for. And we blame the emotion all the time.

I personally believe “if-someone-doesn’t-love-you-the-way-we-want-them-to, they-don’t-love-you-at-all” theory. But, the truth is, we don’t care about love, we care about how it makes us feel and if it doesn’t feel right, no matter how much the other loves us, it wouldn’t matter. How selfish, isn’t it?

That’s the tragedy. Some people will never amount up to that no matter how much they love us and those who amount up to everything seldom love us back. Yes, there lies the tragedy. Love, Alone was never Enough.